December 16th, 2016

color cycle (slow)

I need to rebuild this habit

Twitter is a social parasite that uses stress and obligation to keep me glued to a feed that moves too quickly for real conversation while conditioning me to give it my time to the exclusion of anything else.

I want to show up here more. I can choose to rebuild the habit of using Dreamwidth instead and it's worth doing. I just hope I can drag people back with me.

I've migrated to DreamWidth. The original post is at http://kistaro.dreamwidth.org/494816.html. View comment count unavailable comments at http://kistaro.dreamwidth.org/494816.html#comments; go ahead and use OpenID to post your own, or you can comment here.
airbrushed, thoughtful

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I feel like I have a moral duty to prefer to be alone and stay out of peoples' ways, and that it's inappropriate for me to want anything else.

A lot of my social anxiety is really ambivalence because I feel like it's a moral failing that I want to interact with people.

It turns out that I never really got over being told constantly to shut up and stay out of the way while actual people (adults) were doing important things, which was always. I don't know that I'm really as introverted or fearful as I act, I just don't have any other habits and I'm only recently coming to understand that it feels more like an imperative than anxiety.

I've migrated to DreamWidth. The original post is at http://kistaro.dreamwidth.org/495250.html. View comment count unavailable comments at http://kistaro.dreamwidth.org/495250.html#comments; go ahead and use OpenID to post your own, or you can comment here.