May 9th, 2010

airbrushed, thoughtful

“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.”

If I were to neglect the needs, stress levels, and emotions of any person in my family the way I ignore my own, I'd never forgive myself.

I have to get out of this cycle of trampling my own needs for others' comfort. I have no balance.

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plummet, headfirst, crash, ouch

The Joy of Failure

So last week at work, I was the Executioner. I and I alone made the call that the developer of the feature I was testing, a person I consider a friend, had failed at his job, and it was my decision that we could not ship what he had spent months working on- a major feature we were advertising (internally, this is an internal tool) for this release. A bullet point got pulled, and it was my decision.

I feel sorry for Eric, but I had absolutely no choice; his code was an absolute disaster and would have caused millions of dollars of lost developer time as they dealt with the crashes it caused, losing a major feature of the debugger in the process. It was a clear call, in my opinion.

So with two days before the deadline, we decided to cut the feature; he'll try again next milestone, with enough time to write actual unit tests, redo his thread model, and solve the real problems.

It's amazing how much more relaxed Eric is now. With no more panic to hit a deadline, and no more fear of failure because it already happened, he's in much better shape. It's totally understandable, and in my opinion healthy for him- what's done is done, and he's immediately moving on.

It helps me not feel bad about having to cut the feature, but, well, I'm not the one who wrote all those bugs.

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