October 9th, 2006

chromatic self


All right, so this post has actually been several months in the making, and trying to get it written has been part of my overall low posting rate. But I decided I'd get it done this weekend, so I'm making this my final rewrite.

So a while back, Rakeela and I accidentally stumbled over each other by a mutual- what's the word for someone who's more than an acquaintance but too hazardous to really be a friend?- who thought we would find each other interesting. Well, I suppose xe was right on that count. For each of us, it was a major thing to find someone else as prone to spontaneous geek-outs as ourselves (uh, I'll let y'all untangle that syntax- it's 1:25 AM here, I'm allowed to do horrible things to the English language), and take interest and pleasure in intelligent, analytical conversations. We actually understand each other- both of us are used to having to slow down, back up, and re-explain something in conversation, and we just don't find ourselves doing that very often with each other.

We disagree with each other and then we enjoy discussing the point and researching to get more information than either of us had before. She's gotten me interested in economics and I think I've corrupted her with my computer science. We're both prone to interesting psychic phenomena, which has provided some interesting topics of conversation more than a few times. Even when I'm in my most upset, antisocial moods, talking to her can get me out of it in short order- and I've been informed that I tend to have the same effect on her. (I really haven't been on AIM much recently, for connectivity issue reasons- we've been using an alternate communication medium instead- but I've been overloaded recently, and that completely drains me of any tendencies at all to be social; I've been logging on only to find Rakeela, in general.)

And any of a million other reasons, but all things considered is it really any surprise that we've fallen in love with each other?

This isn't anything we're rushing into. This has been going on for several months, I just haven't said much about it because I don't know how. I still don't, I'm just trying to say something anyway. I want this to be public knowledge. We love each other, and this shows every sign of being a stable, healthy relationship- and I believe and desperately hope it will stay that way for a long time.

So I guess what I'm trying to say in my confused, incoherent way, is that I'm not single, I'm mated to Rakeela, and I love her dearly.
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