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Kistaro Windrider, Reptillian Situation Assessor

Unfortunately, I Really Am That Nerdy

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Wow, I'm actually doing a meme
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(From inuki42)

1-4: I'll take the easy way out and link you here, where I already explained them in full.
5. I do not dream in a normal manner. I can't describe what it's like- imagine six-dimensional space, with your ideas unfolding around you- an immersive, euphoric clarity of thought. And every single idea is there when you wake up, so you can really get things accomplished in this state. Sometimes, the ideas are stories, like regular dreams- but I simply know them and everything that happened in them. I do not experience them.
6. I have a much larger libido than I tend to admit.
7. I went to Space Camp Alabama in 5th grade and got the "Right Stuff" award.
8. I went to Space Academy Alabama, the sequel to Space Camp, shortly after being pulled into homeschooling and got food poisoning.
9. I have irritable bowel syndrome.
10. I have a severe grease intolerance (see previous); too much greasy food in too short a time comes right back up.
11. I would have had an older brother, but it was a miscarraige that killed him and nearly killed my mother.
12. I was birthed via C-section.
13. I was born three weeks prematurely.
14. My less-than-imposing height reflects a three-year growth spurt. I didn't break five feet tall until I was 15.
15. From first grade until sixth grade, I was rotten at math.
16. Wait, I'm still rotten at math.
17. I do far more magic than the open-for-the-curious [metaphysical] filter would imply; I just don't usually bother to write about it unless it was particularly unusual.
18. I like cats.
19. I am very allergic to cats.
20. I like reptiles.
21. My mother is very phobic of reptiles, especially that I will get salmonella from being with 20 feet of a lizard.
22. I do not like small children.
23. For that reason, and I feel the Earth's human population is quite too large already, I do not intend to have children.
24. That has caused some serious conflicts between myself and my parents, the latter of whom are pressuring me- constantly- to start dating.
25. My refusal to do so is primarily related to Nos. 1-4 and 22, the former region being things that I'd have to explain but would only feel comfortable enough to do so to someone I already know rather well, a point at which such a "coming clean" could thoroughly emotionally hurt whoever else is involved- by finding all this stuff I've been hiding, all of which could quite reasonably alienate someone from a relationship. I refuse to take the risk of so hurting someone.
26. It is secondarily related to impressive levels of complete social inability.
27. That social inability stems primarily from my having Asperger's Syndrome.
28. As a result of 27- actually, as a symptom and defining trait of it- I am nearly face-blind. I cannot read facial expressions without conciously thinking of it.
29. Again from 27, I cannot read tone of voice. If I concentrate on it to try to do so, I find that I've forgotten what the words actually are.
30. 28 and 29 are not actually a problem for me; I am an empath. (That's "the psychic reading of another's emotional state.") See also No 4.
31. Also related to 27, I feel a peculiar sort of "overload" when in too chaotic an environment- too many people in one spot, too much noise, too much stimulation of any form.
32. I do not dislike socialization- I very much like it, actually- but 31 forces me to exercize caution, and 26 causes me to be rather poor at starting conversations. (This is why I rarely start an AIM conversation.)
33. I experience "phantom limb syndrome;" see No 3. In short, I feel the presence of wings, a tail, and a snout that aren't physically there.
34. The previous serves as something of an explanation why I do not do well in chairs.
35. Pursuant to No 27, I do not make proper facial expressions or vocal tone.
36. The more relaxed and comfortable I am, the more I sound like I swallowed a copy of The New Unabridged Oxford English Dictionary, chased by a set of the Encyclopaedia Brittanica.
37. When I am in a non-agitated mood, I like to be touched. However, when I'm in an agitated sort of mood- generally, a generic hostile "bad mood", but sadness doesn't always count- I do not; it feels extremely unpleasant to me at those times. Hugging me is probably the absolute worst action to take when I'm in a bad mood.
38. But don't generalize that to a good mood!
39. I do not, however, randomly hug people, primarily because I can't read social cues well enough to tell when it is appropriate to do so and prefer to err on the side caution.
40. I like the word "thwart."
41. My favorite word from my 4th-grade spelling bee study list was "whortleberry."
42. From 2nd to 9th grade, I was in PEGS- the Program for Exceptionally Gifted Students.
43. I dislike modesty, but I comply to it when appropriate. This isn't an appropriate context for it, so a good deal of the remainder of this will be shameless bragging.
44. My IQ has never been accurately measured, because I've never missed a question on an IQ test and never bothered to take a higher level test because topping out was a high enough number for whatever I was being tested for. Considering the highest score I've recently gotten on an IQ test to be a lower bound, my IQ is at least 175.
45. In 4th, 5th, and 6th grade, I took the Belin-Blank BESTS test, a standardized test given only to 4th, 5th, and 6th graders shown by other standardized testing to be in the top 0.1% of the population.
46. In all three BESTS tests, I came out in the 99th percentile for that test, putting me in the top 0.001% of the population with regards to... talent at standardized tests, really.
47. I've never applied to MENSA.
48. I started to read before 18 months of age.
49. I really got the hang of it at about age 2.
50. From age 3 to age 6, I tended to read, aloud, every word I saw, as I read it.
51. This included bathroom graffiti.
52. In the pre-kindergarten program I was in, I corrected the teacher as she began to sing "A Circle Has No Sides." ("No it doesn't! It has an infinite number of sides!" Yes, she was pissed, according to my mother.)
53. When I was first informed- not sure when, but I do remember doing it, as do my parents- that a circle has an infinite number of sides, I wasn't quite sure about it. So I took a plate and tried to count. I came up with 37, but my father pointed out that every side I'd seen was actually a curve and so wasn't a side- I'd have to count it as more. And every time I did, it would still be a curve. And then I actually understood at that point.
54. My favorite show on Channel 9 was the math show, Square One TV. I was so disappointed when it went off the air.
55. From age 3 until 4th grade, I had a serious speech impediment; I tended to nasalize the letter R. (This is very difficult to do. Try forming the R sound way too far back in your throat, and with a bit of creativity, you will figure out how to nasalize it.) This rendered my speech completely incomprehensible to most.
56. One of my best sources of education on letters and reading in general was Wheel of Fortune.
57. Similarly, The Price is Right taught me the concepts of "higher" and "lower."
58. Reading grocery-store ads with my mother taught me some of the first words I learned to read: "free," the construct "buy one get one free", and "half off."
59. I enjoyed taking all the letter magnets on the refrigerator, putting them all in one long line of letters, and then asking my mother how to pronounce it.
60. I am much more eloquent in a textual medium than when speaking; if you ever speak to me in person, you'll have to be patient with a tendency to stutter, get the wrong word, mispronounce things, and get tangled up in my own brain; when speaking, I can be confused for George Dubya Bush. I am actually a faster typist than a speaker.
61. And yet, somehow, I got an A in last semester's Acting class.
62. I like almost any form of music.
63. I used to compose my own electronic music, and it's still availible at http://www.synthstrumental.tk
64. I haven't composed anything for a while- lack of inspiration, really.
65. I have asthma.
66. Cigarette smoke sets off my asthma worse than anything else; it is one of very few "triggers" that can threaten my life in very short order if I can't get out of it.
67. I carry a belt pack for my asthma medication. Meanwhile, it has become sort of a portable hoard; at last count, in addition to two flashlights and assorted garbage, I had at least twelve pens in there.
68. I tend to gnaw on things. Yes, that is why there are teeth marks on my computer mouse.
69. I do not understand the merits of not being immature.
70. I tend to do things with whichever limb is most convinient, not always which one is socially acceptable. I open a lot of cabinets with my feet.
71. Actually, I flip a lot of light switches that way, too. I'm pretty flexible.
72. In case of full arms and nobody availible to punch the buttons for me, I can and will operate elevator buttons with my nose.
73. I like squirrels.
74. I like spicy food.
75. My normal body temperature runs at about 96.5 fahrenheit.
76. I browse the web nonlinearly- the "Open Link In New Tab" button gets far more usage than it should, and fifty to sixty tabs open is an average number for me.
77. I have tendonitis, which has been flaring up recently from too much computer programming. I'm wearing wrist braces right now.
78. If I say "I'm sorry, I don't hear real well and it's noisy in here, what did you just say?" I usually actually mean that "I heard you just fine, but my language parser did not engage properly. I heard words, but I have no idea what they are. Can you try again?"
79. I think in neither sound nor image; I think in raw concepts, linked on an infinite graph to other concepts. This results in my making very fast connections.
80. My making fast connections results in my being prone to changing subjects. A lot. If you ask me what made me think of a particular subject I've just shifted to, I'll be glad to give you the exact chain that led me there- usually about five or six connections.
81. I am good at solving problems, because I do not limit myself to what any given object is supposed to be used for in creating a solution.
82. I take great joy in creating impractical solutions to nonexistant problems. (What would an alien with no hands do for toilet paper? How does a man with clumsy, bulky, prosthetic arms pick his nose? How does a peg-legged pirate play Dance Dance Revolution?)
83. My element is Air.
84. I have really, really bad sense of time.
85. When I get really involved in something, I tend to forget everything else. This does mean that I will look up after working on a computer program and suddenly realize that I'm hungry; further thought will reveal that I last ate before I started working on the program, and that was over twelve hours ago.
86. I get sicker from flu shots than the flu.
87. I have a phobia of wasps.
88. I cannot swim.
89. I like the reality TV show The Amazing Race and consider it one of only three worthwhile shows in the genre.
90. I am okay with the reality TV show The Apprentice, although this season doesn't seem as good.
91. I really liked the reality TV show The Mole. ABC, of course, stopped it after season 2, dammit.
92. I once played in a fan-run online version of The Mole and was the fourth-from-last person, out of 16, to be eliminated.
93. I am prone to dancing in my chair to whatever is playing on my MP3 player.
94. I like Monty Python.
95. But my favorite comedian is Victor Borge.
96. I am an utter maniac for games of any form, and tend to invent my own.
97. Pursuant to 96, Icehouse is one of the best inventions in the world.
98. I use my nine-stash set of Icehouse pieces to model data structures in computer programming.
99. I get bored very, very easily. This probably explains my facination with games- especially pencil-and-paper games, for their availibility.
100. I currently have a two-period sleep schedule: I take a nap after I get back from class, no matter what time that is, and I tend to get about as much sleep then as I do at night.

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*random thought*

I've never "felt"/thought about/envisioned/etc a tail.

Wings, talons, yes, but no tail.

*wiggles butt*

Fascinating. Begin the sociological analysis.


Anyway. Interesting list. You sound remarkably self-aware. Glad that you have the outlet of the online world, too--sounds like it gives you a space to relax in.

Wow, on many of these I agree with you (certainly not all), but the love of cats is definitely shared. When it comes to fact number 69, all I can say is "touche."

*is chewing on her wrist to keep from waking her roommate with her laughter*

I knew there was a reason I liked you. Actually, there's a whole set, and they're numbered 1-100. :D

You're also scarily intelligent, you know :) I am well above average, but you feel orders of magnitude more intellectual than I am.

You're an intriguing person, you know that?

I'm used to the being too smart for my surroundings one, and the making crazy connections, but the way you describe your dreams and how early you began reading might be a bit beyond me. The dream one leaves me extremely curious, though it somewhat reminds me on the way I think when I get in the right mood. Could you desribe it a little more?

Oh yes, and nice job with standardized tests. Skill at those amazes me once it reaches a certain point. Partly because I zombify and get bored when I see them ^^;;;

Re: 17--Your [metaphysical] filter continues to sound more and more interesting.

Re: 36--That sounds a far better cocktail than a great many around these parts.

Re: 44--One interesting thing is there is then (in theory) someone on the opposite end of the bell curve from you with an IQ approaching zero.

Re: 47--That's good. I could never bring myself to try and join an organisation that claims to be smart but names their group "table" as if it's so special.

Re: 48-51--Hehe, my first read words were "Truck Wash" from a billboard along the highway. (Have I mentioned I moved a lot as a kid...)

Re: 54--I *loved* Square One. I was always confused by the Mathnet intro where they said "The story you are about to see is false, but it is short. The story you are about to see is true." or something like that.

Re: 61--If as you said before, all your knowledge of tone and expression is conscious, then you might have a good insight into how to better present those tones and expressions back again more easily.

Re: 62--It's nice to here someone else say that.

Re: 69--Clever. I would say maturity is knowing the right moments to be "immature".

Re: 70--Why would we have toes if they weren't for grabbing things?

Re: 76--...and I thought I was excessive in getting to over a dozen!

Re: 79--Interesting...the one drawback I've seen in my thinking is a slowness to acquire infinity. I can iterate for you as much as you want, and recurse repeatedly, but the mental "stepping back" takes a bit to process.

Re: 80--I definitely do that. Just move a couple steps down the way and you can end pretty much anywhere :)

Re: 88--Did you have to do the swimming unit in Physical Education class? This issue definitely arose when I did.

Re: 94-95--Twoderful choices.

Re: 96--Speaking of which, we haven't played Confusion in quite some time!

This would be the "short version" of my comment, I suppose.
There needs to be an lj-cut feature for comments, too.

17: Added to filter.

61: Quite probably- I've got better concious control over those responses than most do, I suppose, since I've had to learn to synthesize emotional expression exactly because it doesn't come naturally.

76: A dozen? Ha! I have Firefox set to load twenty tabs, considering them home pages, as soon as I open it!

88: Until my one year of middle school, there was no phys-ed swimming; that year, I gave up on phys-ed and my parents and I managed to talk me out of it and switch that for study hall, deciding I'd get my phys-ed credit in through weightlifting, which has the merit of being individualistic. I gave up when the swimming unit started. My state of physical- well, not fitness, but at least acceptable-levels-ness- comes entirely from my judo class and the maintainance of trying to eat well, carry a 20lb backpack, and ride a bike; before I started judo class, I had virtually no endurance, a 12-pound bowling ball was a stretch for my lifting ability, and I was rather fat. Sensei Shepard got me over that. If I ever find myself not living on campus for a summer, I intend to go back to her class just for the exercise- I know I'll really suck at judo because I've been off it for over a year now, but exercise is exercise and I can pick it back up again.

96: I know. I do have the deck... This week is a mess, but some time in the vaguely near future?

Re: 76--I never thought to have all the tabs open at once. Since I only ever have one or two pages in view at once anyway, I've been content to just type a lot of URLs as I'm opening them--it gives me time to go back to other stuff while they load. :)

48. Oh my.
51. Oh dear.
52. Now that I think of it, that song should be called "A circle has no corners." Probably a circle could be construed as having corners too, but it makes more sense than sides-as-defined-as-straight-lines-only.

61. Acting... yeah, why is that? I have a lot of the same thing going for me- I wasn't exceptional at reading body language, facial expressions, or tone of voice, but I've always been regarded as being a pretty good actor... thought of as one with a unusually-early natural talent for it, even. (I've been the lead in a couple school plays, and taken a few extracurricular drama classes, but it's never really gone past elementary school. For a while I was pretty sure it was what I'd do when I grew up.) So how does that work, why is that?

80. I used to do that, the string of subject connections. After I found that I'd earn strange looks in conversations for doing it and end up wasting triple the time having to explain how I got there, I learned not to do it so openly. Most connections happen fast enough that I don't have time to discuss all of them, anyhow.

Your descriptions of how you think are fascinating, by the way; I do see a lot of similarities to myself that I haven't seen elsewhere, and some that I can't imagine doing. I figure there's actually a vast difference between how *everyone* thinks, more than anyone is really aware of... I'm sure it's everyone, too, not just certain groups of people, since when I've interacted with spirits, the way they think is shown almost plainly and they vary completely in styles from one person to the next.

85. I think most people do that, actually, losing track of time when they're keenly interested in something. I do, anyhow, and I've heard a few other people mention it the same way.

All the other stuff on here is extremely cool to know, too, but I have a text-limit in here.

51. "Daddy, what does 'fuck' mean?" (Actually, I was calling my parents by their first names by then. I still do that. It's just more disturbing this way.)

61. kamoranakrre had a good guess- see his comment and my reply to such, on this thread, for my thoughts on that. In short, we're used to synthesizing expressions, and we're conciously aware of them- we have to be, or we could never read faces otherwise.

80. But I usually don't even realize that I've strayed from the subject until it is far, far too late.

Text limits? Bah! Post multiple comments!

61. Actually, I've observed the same thing -- I'm really a pretty decent actor, and bad at improv and speaking. My observations are that acting:

(1) involves recitation, not extemporaneity. (To mangle a few words in pursuit of the right concept, anyway.) Much of the uncertainty of public speaking involves having to continually adapt to your audience. With acting, you have a fixed set of words to run through, and while you do want to adapt to your audience (play up the right lines for laughs, and set your pacing, based on their mood) there's always a script to return to and as long as you can stick to it you can't do a worse than passable job.

(2) Involves a skill set that is much more friendly to social misfits than open conversation. Things like projecting your voice, facing the front of the stage, etc., are very good for rules-based personalities and in some ways counterintuitive for those used to more standard interactions.

> 82. ... How does a peg-legged pirate play Dance Dance Revolution?

If you've never seen the one-legged man DDR video before, you must go here. Right now.

Wow. That is truly amazing. It is definitely deserving of kitty worship.

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