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Kistaro Windrider, Reptillian Situation Assessor

Unfortunately, I Really Am That Nerdy

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By the way... would any of you happen to have a sledgehammer and the home address of the twit who thought it would be a good idea to make setMinimumSize(Dimension size) NOT implicitly call setPreferredSize(Dimension size) when the min is larger than the preferred, or the preferred is undefined? I'd like to have a little conversation with him about that programming decision, to make it so Swing components will prefer to size something at below its minimum functional size if you don't explicitly set the preferredSize as well.

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Re: Differentiation Yet Unity

You're catching on. I do suspect I was shaped like this in a past life, but I make one further assertion: the form in question is one that is more "natural" to me. This is supported somewhat by the fact that I still identify with it, and you are at this point correct to point out the circularity of such an argument.

What it comes to- as it almost inevitably does- is the definition of "human". By purely biological definitions, I make no claims in any way against humanity. I argue only in my identity, my soul, my perspective, and my outlook.

We are all together in one society, one culture, one species, and one unique set of experiences that cannot exist anywhere else: every culture is unique, at the nation level or the more generic species level. But it is a situation I will experience very differently from you- as must everybody experience everything uniquely. And I deny none of this.

But through it all, I still fail to identify as human. I have tried to before, and it's come crashing down: I do not strive to identify as a dragon, I must fight if I wish to not. And I have nothing to gain by doing that, nothing to gain except a phony normalcy and a blithe ignorance- nay, a denial- of an identity, of what is most naturally myself, that I am actively fighting.

In the end, this is all coming down to nothing more exotic than identity. And nothing less exotic, nothing less aetheric...

What unites us is that we are all beings. We exist. We are. Everyone comes from a different background, true. I suppose you are fortunate to have a notion of where you believe that background lies. Many spend their whole lives searching never to discover it.

What is it to identify as human? I don't think we can fail at it if we do not know what it is we're doing. I only think of myself as human because I have two arms, two legs, two ears, two eyes, etc. etc. arranged just so. There is nothing mental or spiritual inside that I can possibly know would mark me as a human as I don't have anyone else's mental or spiritual states as a reference. I call myself a listener because I listen. People strangely identify that I listen and tell me things. But I don't know how that came to be... In my travels the world over I've met some others like me. We have nothing so specific to relate to as a dragon, however. We have but our power to listen.

Stepping back a second, it's interesting how this conversation came to be. Both of us just happen to know each other and both help in support and you happen to comment in response to negative activity. It's interesting.

Stepping back again, we see that one can step back an absurd (read, infinite) number of times and so I'm going to stop here.

Identity is an extremely complex thing- a statement that I believe this thread stands as adequate proof for. There is absolutely no absolute frame of reference for identity.

But I am not looking outside for a frame of reference. I am making absolutely no appeal to anything objective, no appeal to logic. I just am, and that's all I can say: I exist, and I identify as existing as this.

And "this" is far beyond any label. It's more complex than the Java keyword of the same name. "Dragon" is simply the most convinient label I have for a polymorphic concept of infinite complexity.

I must also register agreement with something Inuki said: that I am also human, for this life. I don't have a choice: if I had no human identity at all, I wouldn't be able to function. I consider awareness of the fact that I presently lack wings and hence diving out a fifth-floor window is a Bad Idea to be something of human identity: to understand this physical form, and to simply be in this society. I make absolutely no claims of inhuman biology. I've got my mutations- natural body temperature of 95.5 degrees, and it plummets when I get hungry- but that, and the other various variances, are well within normal bounds. Physically, I am human. Biologically- and hence the associated drives- I am human. Mentally, spiritually? Therein lies the contradiction.

It might be strange, but I beleive that no soul has any inherent natural form. But, as evidenced by myself and several others, it is very possible for one to "pick up" a form and wind up quite attached to it- and then a spot confused when it winds up incarnated in something shaped almost, but not entirely, unlike that.

I'm enjoying this philosophising, really, so take it as a bit of a warning: my replies from this point onward are likely to have questionable amounts of relevance to the question that spawned it, should this continue (and I rather hope it does). They will be for the pure fun of thinking, expressing, philosophising... and I do hope you are enjoying this for the same reason.

For some reason, I think you might like the forums at http://www.tomorrowlands.org/ because of the level of philosophy it can hit. Humans welcome!

See you in class- uh, technically, later today.

Philosophisizing is fine, fun, and all that. I'll get to that later... I don't know that I'll participate in the forums just because I don't really say things in online forums too much. (Except LJ, here, but that's a little different.) Yes...see you "today".

This comment doesn't really say much but is an attempt to make the comment to which it is a reply 'appear' as it were. I've been noticing the comments-do-not-appear-until-replied-to thing happening a few times recently...too lazy to look up the relevant Zilla item at the moment.

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