color cycle (slow)

Last LJ post

Hey all,

I joined the LJ exodus train before it was cool</hipster>, but with recent developments in LiveJournal server location (http://frameacloud.dreamwidth.org/469754.html), I'm finalizing it more - I am not likely to use Dreamwidth's crosspost feature in the future.

Please follow me over to Dreamwidth? I'm trying to keep up the habit again. (And prod me if I don't.)

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airbrushed, thoughtful

Failing, etc.

That feeling of being 99% sure a social space would have been better for everyone without you in it, but you can't apologize or talk about it or acknowledge it because then people will try to tell you it wasn't so bad, and that message contains no information because it is pro forma and it is inappropriate and manipulative to elicit it.

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  • Current Music
    Jim's Big Ego - I Don't Know How to Party
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Maybe it's seasonal

I'm having another wave of this urge to apologize to my parents for not having children and, thus, never letting them be grandparents. It's... not really something I should feel like I should cede them control over, but that applies to a lot of things. A lot of my issues can be summarized by "I am still not 'over' all the things I know my parents would not approve of", I guess.

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nyah, tongueout, glasses, nerd

In which I am overenthusiastic about appliances

On my parents' recommendation, when I showed them my home thermometer as part of a video call, I bought a few humidifiers. They're helping, but there's a lot of work to do! I'm going through distilled water at a stupid rate, but it's cheap and it's easier than having to descale the thing four times as often. (I know I'll still need to do it, but less is less.)

I get irrationally excited every time the indoor thermometer/humidity-sensor informs me the indoor relative humidity is up another percentage point. It's all the way up to 28%, when it was 18% yesterday! I'm aiming for 35% or so.

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  • Current Music
    the quiet whirring of humidifiers
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(no subject)

I feel like I have a moral duty to prefer to be alone and stay out of peoples' ways, and that it's inappropriate for me to want anything else.

A lot of my social anxiety is really ambivalence because I feel like it's a moral failing that I want to interact with people.

It turns out that I never really got over being told constantly to shut up and stay out of the way while actual people (adults) were doing important things, which was always. I don't know that I'm really as introverted or fearful as I act, I just don't have any other habits and I'm only recently coming to understand that it feels more like an imperative than anxiety.

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color cycle (slow)

I need to rebuild this habit

Twitter is a social parasite that uses stress and obligation to keep me glued to a feed that moves too quickly for real conversation while conditioning me to give it my time to the exclusion of anything else.

I want to show up here more. I can choose to rebuild the habit of using Dreamwidth instead and it's worth doing. I just hope I can drag people back with me.

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