A lot of my social anxiety is really ambivalence because I feel like it's a moral failing that I want to interact with people.
It turns out that I never really got over being told constantly to shut up and stay out of the way while actual people (adults) were doing important things, which was always. I don't know that I'm really as introverted or fearful as I act, I just don't have any other habits and I'm only recently coming to understand that it feels more like an imperative than anxiety.
I've migrated to DreamWidth. The original post is at http://kistaro.dreamwidth.org/495250.htm